No, wait. Mine. She and I have finally had a(n email) conversation. Turns out, she's crazy stressed and upset right now (about things she wasn't telling me) so she's a bit less able to handle things. She still wants space but has, a few times, reminded me she loves me. Granted, one was basically "I can't believe how much you hate me and I don't want to interact with you, but I will always love you." The last one was much kinder, softer-toned and more loving.
I can't blame her for feeling overwhelmed. I was for several months. I think she wanted more interaction than I was capable of. I get where she's coming from and this time the space she needs feels less personal and permanent... I hope I'm right. Honestly... I think I've been looking at her as a person I need to parent and protect. She has told me not to, but also sort of made it clear she appreciates it... but it's patronizing and not particularly healthy sometimes, so maybe I can drop that and when we pick up again we can be in a healthier place. Here's hoping.
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