I feel so fortunate to be able to parent my baby the ways I've wanted to with little interference from others. And with insight from Husband, who is a very insightful sort of person. I've kind of bundled us into this Baby-Mama world and only occasionally emerge for fun things or if I haaave to. Husband doesn't always get to join us, either (work, usually). I haven't been an awesome wife, sister or daughter but I've at least been a pretty good mom.
As he gets older, I'm getting more time to myself at nights (usually) and often have more energy to tackle things I didn't used to be able to. I'm also basically always really tired (often to the point where the bare necessities are hard but they've always been do-able). On the one hand, I want to do more sometimes (when I can). On the other hand, I still feel overwhelmed by stuff much of the time... so I'm still not beating myself up and I'm still counting myself very fortunate that I don't *have* to do more than I am doing... but I'm also trying to do more when I can...
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